My hands suck

i don’t know why. i have theories. it could be dyspraxia. it could be dysgraphia. it could be joint hypermobility. it could be arthritis. it could be multiple of these. i’m not sure. i can’t play rhythm games anymore. i used to be able to.

i’ve never been able to write well. in secondary school i couldn’t comfortable handwrite a page of text. this hurt my academics. nobody wondered why. nobody tried to help me.

my hands ache as i write this. more in my right hand, localised mostly in my little fingers and the joints closer to the palm.

my grip is bad. i constantly drop my phone. i can’t do fine motor tasks. last time i tried to repair my ipod i broke the screen. last time i tried to repair my joycons i broke the sync button.

it’s hard for me to type. it’s hard for me to draw on a drawing tablet. it’s hard for me to hold a pencil. it’s hard for me to wash the dishes.

i’ll talk to my gp about it when executive function lets me.